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i was blessed with a really good sense of humor. growing up in my house, i needed one. through out childhood it was a great
coping mechanism. i can easily cut the tension in a room with my quick wit. though i also use my powers for evil-like getting
myself out of trouble or avoiding discussing certain topics. combining my humor and imagery (most recently eggs) i am able
to lighten up some of the topics of my pieces. i can say i am damaged or feel different or talk about being over weight
without the piece being too heavy (no pun intended). however, i was just not able to do that with this piece. there is nothing
playful about this one. of my recent works, it is probably the darkest.
like most of my work, this is inspired by childhood trauma and particularly refers to dissociating. that's another coping
mechanism i have also carried into adulthood. sometimes getting lost in my fantasy worlds is helpful-keeps me from feeling
so lonely. it gets out of hand occasionally, though. i'll need to spend a little more time on the therapy couch for that!! :) in
the process of making this one, i read a poem by anne sexton and a line in it read "eggs must not quarrel with stones." i just
thought "YES!!!" how powerful is that!?!? eggs must not quarrel with stones. immediately i imagined an egg and a rock
fighting. the egg has no chance. it just summed up the theme of my current body of work. all the coping mechanisms in the
world won't stop the damage-just helps to survive the moment. sometimes that is all a person can do-survive the moment.
coping mechanism. i can easily cut the tension in a room with my quick wit. though i also use my powers for evil-like getting
myself out of trouble or avoiding discussing certain topics. combining my humor and imagery (most recently eggs) i am able
to lighten up some of the topics of my pieces. i can say i am damaged or feel different or talk about being over weight
without the piece being too heavy (no pun intended). however, i was just not able to do that with this piece. there is nothing
playful about this one. of my recent works, it is probably the darkest.
like most of my work, this is inspired by childhood trauma and particularly refers to dissociating. that's another coping
mechanism i have also carried into adulthood. sometimes getting lost in my fantasy worlds is helpful-keeps me from feeling
so lonely. it gets out of hand occasionally, though. i'll need to spend a little more time on the therapy couch for that!! :) in
the process of making this one, i read a poem by anne sexton and a line in it read "eggs must not quarrel with stones." i just
thought "YES!!!" how powerful is that!?!? eggs must not quarrel with stones. immediately i imagined an egg and a rock
fighting. the egg has no chance. it just summed up the theme of my current body of work. all the coping mechanisms in the
world won't stop the damage-just helps to survive the moment. sometimes that is all a person can do-survive the moment.
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